​conversations with myself

[Verse 1]
Yeah
All these conversations with me, myself and I
Back and forth and I'm all over looking for a place to hide
It's like I'm drowning, I'm invisible, yeah
I just wish I was invincible, yeah
All these people all around and I'm just one among so many
How do I compare to them?
My chest is getting heavy
Every day that I wake up the weight is growing more
And I feel I stray away from finding what I'm living for
What's the purpose?
Convince myself I'm worth it
Trying to understand whatever's underneath the surface
This all I knew beforе [?]
Time I spent on evеrything is wasted and it's worthless
I'll never be perfect
I can feel the sweat from my head
But I'm slumped feeling dead
Drowning in my bed
Waiting for the day when the soul I have is lifting
[?] my imagination drifting

[Verse 2]
All these conversations with me, myself and I
Back and forth and I'm all over looking for a place to hide
It's like I'm drowning, I'm invisible, yeah
I just wish I was invincible, yeah
I'm lacking motivation on a daily basis
Sometimes I can't recognize familiar faces
I shut down when I'm forced to adapt to changes
And lately in my head I'm scattered into pieces
I'm never decent as of recent, piling up my problems
I never give them my attention keep them at the bottom
I never solve them feeling awful and I keep them bottled
And I don't know where I will go, I fall like leaves in autumn
I'm getting sick I'm fucking tired of the way I always feel
I can't differentiate between what's fake and fucking real
It takes all the strength inside me not to give in to my anger
Every single question that I've ever had unanswered