Conspiracy

I beat myself up
For letting you down
Wish things had gone my way
Counted my blessings
Not sure what I'm missing
Too young to be tired of change

Did I miss a beat
Of this conspiracy
I'm done with digging all the dirt
Denial's my disease
This plot I made believe
Keep hitting me where it hurts

Why do I keep on trying to fix what ain't broken
I'll bend us to break just so I can feel some emotion
And all I ever wanted was a sweet distraction
But you stayed long enough to turn into my only obsession

Pinning shadows down
I get worse when it gets darker
The light is too bright
I'm exhausted by the colours of you
Of your golden hue

Leave the bulb alone and
Let the flower bloom
Keep your sticks and stones
Don't trip over the fuse but I do
Because of you

Did I miss a beat
Of this conspiracy
I'm done with digging all the dirt
Denial's my disease
This plot I made believe
Keep hitting me where it hurts

Why do I keep on trying to fix what ain't broken
I'll bend us to break just so I can feel some emotion
And all I ever wanted was a sweet distraction
But you stayed long enough to turn into my only obsession