Conscientious

Seven corpses severed, left on the doorstep
Eleven thoughts of distortion, petals fragile like porcelain
I’m never better, whenever I see contortions
Led from when I bleed, these voices inside of my conscious
All of my life I've been enclosed inside of a space
Little is known, should never be shown, for what I am faced
I feel so alone, might take the case of all of this hate
It’s told the future is unknown, inevitably all will succumb to my fate
Prohibition of wishes, lies from the mistress
These kisses never meant shit, you were never my ambition
The repetition of repetitions, I vanish like the magician
Like I never was even living
I look at the past from when all this torture would start to amass
It’s safe to assume, i’ll be consumed, within this room, this will be my last
The reason I'm writing these bars, to cover these scars, it acts as my cast
I look at the stars, I hope from afar, and wish that I’ll soon not relapse

Homicide, suicide, what is the expense
Everybody talk about you in the past tense
Everywhere the pain will be the hatred will immense
What’s with all the contemplations, nothing’s making sense
The world is slowly crumbling my heart is in distress
Torment all around me and I cannot take this stress
Darkness in the room and I be feelin’ so depressed
If I keep my composure then my curse will soon suppress

Homicide, suicide, what is the expense
Everybody talk about you in the past tense
Everywhere the pain will be the hatred will immense
What’s with all the contemplations, nothing’s making sense
The world is slowly crumbling my heart is in distress
Torment all around me and I cannot take this stress
Darkness in the room and I be feelin’ so depressed
If I keep my composure then my curse will soon suppress

I never thought that overtime
I would get caught up in my mind
I know my thoughts will soon collide
My inner self will soon shine
Together we are unified
Diversity should not divide
Through who I am just defined
As just a shitty beach with some high tides