Conditioned

[Intro]
In my mind, I cried so much time for help
I felt like I was drowning in a, on an empty shelf
I'm so cold, I don't know, know what to do
Couldn't get up on my feet and I
Couldn't find nothing to eat now

[Verse 1]
Y'all know they see the fame, but they don't see I see the rain
Yeah, I've been through the flames, I'm conditioned to this pain (Gang)
I'm conditioned to this pain, conditioned to this way of living
Some shit will never be the same
Now I don't need no help, I grab my pride and place it back on the shelf
Played the game the best way with the cards that we was dealt (Ayy)
I was raised the best way, with both 'rents in the house
The way they brought us kids up, shit wasn't meant to go south
We always knew what to do, the only question was how
To the ones that left us boys reeling, bet they regretting it now
Ayy, see, don't ever see the pain I hold
Deep inside my feelings, what I had to go through stained my soul
Sipping syrup, popping Perks, I even took Panadol
Hit the turf and got to work, turned me to an animal

[Chorus]
I'm so cold, I don't know what to do
Couldn't get up on my feet, man
Couldn't find nothing to eat, man (Yeah)

[Verse 2]
Cold-hearted so my feelings are numb
Cold sweats and nightmares from all the shit that I done
And the shit that I witnessed growing up on the block
Learning from my mistakes is what turned me into a boss
But how many times did they kick me down and I got back up on my feet?
They done see me changing my way, but don't mistake me, boy, like I'm sweet
If I see the boys on the road, I'm still hopping out of that Jeep
And I'm gon' stand tall, do anything 'cause I ain't bowing down to no sheep (Yeah, yeah)

[Bridge]
They try to drag me through the mud, but I'm just thanking God all my life
Fuck what's running wrong, I did what I did to survive

[Verse 3]
Yeah, listen
I got youngers like disciples
So they're chopping when I make the call
Used to love the beef, now it's rare, you could say it's raw
Praise be to the Lord, yeah, my rocker changed my hands for war
But please forgive this life I'm living, now I'm breaking laws
'Cause we got stuck up in that cycle
In and out of prison, we was drilling on our rivals
Saying that I'm quitting, then repeat it like Rosado
Said it's beefing on the sidewalk
Got my hand on the steel and one on the Bible, listen

[Outro]
I'm so cold, I don't know what to do, yeah
Couldn't get up on my feet now
Couldn't find nothing to eat now