Composure

[Verse 1: RAIZA BIZA]
Yeah
It was 3 January, I picked the phone up
Say "hold up, I'm driving"; I fixed the phone up
It was bro bro, he asked if he could roll up
Said "I ain't home but why you quiet? Fix your tone now" (hmm)
That's when a bro paused (hmm)
And I ain't talking a short pause
At least a 5-second long pause (Yeah)
"Yo what the fuck is goin' on dawg?"
He told me all he heard from the start to the end
In a way, I think that convo was harder for him
"That party that she went to on New Years Day...
Made some calls to make sure but she played you Rai"
I just couldn't believe it, I just couldn't
I even had the proof I needed, I just wouldn't
Saw signs but chose to ignore them, when I shouldn't
I just dived straight in the ocean without looking
Imagine me during my drive home and she in my home
And she been acting like everything fine
Yo, I'm thinking goddamn maybe I'm going blind
Or maybe worse, maybe I've been loving a liar
My heartbeat accelerating quick as my car is
My temperature feeling like I'm in front of a furnace
I got another call from my bro told me "slow down
Think about the way it's gonna go down"

[Bridge]
Should I not feel so lost? Should I not feel betrayed?
When you let me down
Should I not wait around? Should I not wait for you?
Why you let me down?
Should I not feel so lost? Should I not feel betrayed?
When you let me down
Should I not wait around? Should I not wait for you?
Why you let me down?

[Verse 2: RAIZA BIZA]
As far as dude go I ain't got the energy
He probably did me a favour, shit I might let him be
Crazy thing is after all of that instead of telling me
You let me walk around like a fool, like I'm your enemy
Like I ain't help you turn your dreams to reality
Like I ain't hold you down
When you weren't hearing from your family
Like I ain't go and get you a job and get you situated
Like I ain't keep my word and all that I initiated
Fuck all that shit I paid for that ain't a thing to me
Told you Imma take care of us if you take care of me
But you so busy tryna hide it like camouflage
Got me thinking maybe it's your trauma got you acting off (hmm)
Or maybe you just loose
And I'm so naive I'm tryna give you an excuse
We watchin' "Love & Hip Hop" to ???
You criticise him but that's what you were doing all along
Accusing me of bullshit while going through my phone
Why it be the ones who guilty who be always paranoid
All's fair in love and war but the part that fuck me up
Is that I introduced you to my daughter
She was 8, she looked up to you
She still ask me every day why I'm not with you
I don't even know why I got with you
Should have left your ass in the club instead of fuck with you (uh)
You'll never know the situation you put me between
I nearly turned into a person I shouldn't have been
Back and forth until I'm ???
You had sides that to me just couldn't be seen
I really thought that you ???
All along you were acting like a movie screen
That old saying goes
"Show me your friends and I'll show you who you are"
Why all your friends in a groupie scene
I ain't saying that's you
But that's some shit I should have seen first
Find out your reputation, you know? Did some research
Instead I'm smoking Ls while you're twerking in my t-shirt
Caught up with that fat ass, thin waist, yes sir
Fast-forward you're in Melbourne actin' stupid
Maybe I should go and make a fake account like you did
Maybe I should stop trying to be the bigger man
Niggas still trying to give me love advice like they was Cupid
Quit the lyin', tellin' girls that we're still an item
Next time you find a good man you should get behind him
I learned a valuable lesson and it was perfect timing
At least I gave you my all and that's the silver lining

[Verse 3: NXVA]