Complicated

Did you know I think of you?
And times we had, I know they're through
These years that have passed erased my face

I drank to hide my fears
Never made intentions clear
Did you think that you would be replaced?

I thought of you in those times
You the girl I'd want for life
Now the time for that has passed away

Looking back across those years
I wonder if it'd help to hear
I was going to marry you someday

How could I say I needed you
When I didn't even know what you wanted from me?
How could I tell you what it meant
When I didn't even know if you'd ever loved me?

This resonance we shared
Is long gone, and have you cared?
I guess our chance was lost to fate

If you knew it, if you could
Feel it slip as things then stood
Did you feel you'd been betrayed?

I wasn't much of a man then
Didn't know what I'd never mend
I assumed we'd only stray

At times you'd look at me
I'd hope I'd still see
Something making me feel less ashamed

How could I say I needed you
When I didn't even know what you wanted from me?
How could I tell you what it meant
When I didn't even know if you'd ever loved me?

Now you know I'd think of you
But now, I seldom do
Those thoughts got in the way

I regret these words I had
Obsession has nothing to add
I will not be living out clichés

I think of you less each time
When the past still comes to mind
Does it seem just all a waste?

My answer's very clear
You weren't too concerned then, dear
I was a fool to give chase

How could I say I needed you
When I didn't even know what you wanted from me?
How could I tell you what it meant
When I didn't even know if you'd ever loved me?

Why are you still in my thoughts?
Complicated, cold, and lovely
Can I get beyond regret?
You're no longer thinking of me