Communicate

[Verse]
I bow my head and I pray, it's be so long since I've prayed
I'm on my knees in the poring rain under skies that are grey
I'm on my knees tryna plead to a God I've doubted for strength
I bow my head and I pray that you hear these words that I say
You'll hear these songs that I wrote, you see it's not just a phase
I'm clinging onto to the hope that you'll find a time and a place
Where you can hear all of these songs and see what's all on my brain
These songs I wrote are the only hope that I'll communicate
Cause you dismiss anything that I try to tell you
Anytime we even try to talk your tone is so resentful
So I wrote you a bunch of letters, threw 'em on instrumentals
In hopes that my voice is loud enough to reach you and you get the memo
And yeah I know I should move on and I deserve better
I don't want better I want you, I want forever
None of us are perfect but I think you're worth it in the end
And I'm a firm believer me and you could learn to grow together
So listen, I know my message might come off as inconsistent
I know some of the shit was harsh but I'm conflicted
Some days I'm just like fuck it, I ain't need you to begin with
Other days I'd give up everything to try to close the distance
Some days I think it's not too late for us to make it different
Other days I have no hope that you would even fucking listen
If my words make you smile, make you mad and make you cry
That's just a glimpse at what this scattered mess is like inside my mind
So talk that "Kurt got soft" bullshit that ya'll wanna talk
Let me get 12 plays on SoundCloud and feel like I'm falling off
Let me feel like I'm wasting studio time to record this song
As long as it reaches you none of that matters anymore
But who knows, maybe I'm wrong and this shit could actually blow
I'd reach millions of fans and they'll sing along at my shows
I'll get radio play all across the globe it'll be known
That Kurt Hazard really made it big and did it on his own
At that point would you reach out to me and try to make it right
You think that I would be convinced you changed over night
You think that I'd forget that our last conversation was a fight
You think that I'd forget how wrong you did me, how you said goodbye
Without any closure you never even looked me in the eye
You never even checked for me you never once apologized
You think that once I hit the top I'd let you back into my life
Cause if you're thinking that the saddest part about it is you're prolly right .

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