Collapse

Back-pedaling into the black
But I can still make out the figures
That will threaten my well-being
The wind will rise and fall
But never sway from side to side

Progression halted
Encapsulating the fluid weave of death
Like a garden that contains all of its arrested offspring
We’re afraid to force our legs to break free from the earth
And take the first step towards our insecurity

Sleep away your selfishness
Slip into collapse
A still-like state of disregard
From which you can’t fall back
You never fully moved me
I’ve been embedded in the dust
And my mind has been ravaged by war

Pray for farewell as if I was yours to lose
I would love to love you, if you were someone else
So forgive me for being unresponsive
I’m sure it’s hard to train your ears
To hear me crying out for help
With my lips sewn shut by the stitches of my own indecision

So I’ll speak in whispers to permit my throat relief
I bite my tongue
Fill my mouth with blood
And swallow enough to kill me
Before I’m forced to lose more sleep
So I’ll speak in whispers to permit my throat relief
I bite my tongue
Fill my mouth with blood
And swallow enough to kill me

I would love to love you
If you were someone else
Am I fit to walk alone again
Or will you save me from myself?
Breathe life into me
Be all that I can see
Or carry on without me
And just know I wished you well