Coldest Winter

Hook [Kierra Sari]
In the coldest winter

I try to remember

All the pain and the hurt I've caused yeah

Why can't I see past my own flaws here

In the coldest winter

Hiding in this river

As I slowly descend to the bottom

But I don't know who'd forgive a monster

Verse 1 [Raj Parker]
Chillin in the dark...all by my lonesome

Yes I mean alone, even God is absent

Can't hear him. Can't hear him calling out my name

I want him to speak to me loud and clear again

Like he used to, when I was a snot nose, seven years old, but I preached like I was 24...and fearless, but looking back just naïve

It's easy not to fear what you've never seen turn against you, leave you out in the cold with nothing to defend you, stripped bare naked all in shame they never let you

Live it down, never let it go, never forgive, never forget, I'm never gonna go

To this new level, ain't nobody gonna feel my pain. I reached out for reconciliation, no one came. The only ones who spoke were those whom I didn't offend

Which means in their hearts they do not wish to make amends

And if this bit doesn't kill me...I know another thing will soon

I ask again: "Yo, can anybody hear me?" If I remain here imma lose it

Hook [Kierra Sari]
In the coldest winter

I try to remember

All the pain and the hurt I've caused yeah

Why can't I see past my own flaws here

In the coldest winter

Hiding in this river

As I slowly descend to the bottom

But I don't know who'd forgive a monster

Verse 2 [Raj Parker]
Yeah. My name got about 20 letters in it...but only 3 syllables

What I've become over past time, as I hardened my heart to this worlds cruel cynicals

The non believers and all the fakes. I used to be different, then I started to assimilate

Affiliate. I started to adapt. My improved mind de-evolutionized, I took a step back to the dark ages; Where there was no God. Live and die by the sword, eat by progress

If you failed, left you face down in the water or caught up with the latest plague so why bother

Just live your life as pauper. There's no merit in always trying to be a prince

Since I can't live like a king

I've let go of "already" and stopped believing in "not yet"

Hook [Kierra Sari]
In the coldest winter

I try to remember

All the pain and the hurt I've caused yeah

Why can't I see past my own flaws here

In the coldest winter

Hiding in this river

As I slowly descend to the bottom

But I don't know who'd forgive a monster

Verse 3 [Raj Parker]
So now I understand what I'm called to

The beast must be slain, I cannot remain caustic

I gotta let it all go, no more bravado. Boasting in my rhymes I must now speak softer

Even though I knock him, it's probably how Da' T.R.U.T.H. felt

After the Faith was nominated, sure we all felt

Like he deserved the Grammy, the greatest Christian spitter ever to pen all them lyrics down, gotta give him that

Then he changed. The burn left. The fire left his breath, had us all looking like who the what is that?

The REAL truth. Who we should have known. No more aggression towards the body, his covers blown

To smithereens, pieces. Try to pick em up. But we didn't see it, this the voice of one

Whom the peace of Jesus has completely overtaken

A heart of a man that no longer gives wins to Satan

So we should praise him, once we see the big picture

Go on, be foolish and try to put a frame in

You can't. An impossible task. Lets just be honest and say the concept of submission is hard to grasp

For all of us, struggling as laymen. Let your nays become "Yes"s and Amens

The love of God penetrates and makes a-mends. Throughout the pain I will submit to these chang-es