Cold

[Verse 1: thebreathingbackwards]
I was born from something different than I am now
'Cause what I am now, is like motion of the sand
How it fights with the waves creating friction
It's the struggle of a dream, within the rhymes and the diction

That I spit whenever I'm feeling down, escape in a safer sound
I always heard it takes less effort to smile than effort to frown
But I'm starting to think that every lie that I've heard is just adding up
Inside my chest, I think I've had enough

I'm impaired by all my fears
Isolated by my peers
Hung up on the shit I hear
From lips that only disappear

And ghost me when I'm feeling down
Break my body to the ground
Suffocate in sadness sounds
To fold the fomo in my frown

Overdose on Serotonin
Tolerance is overflowing
Only time will tell
But I got no idea just where I'm going

Lost up in the architechture
Of an ode to feeling better
Deep December sweater weather
808s beyond forever

I been gone for fucking years, it's been all over
Theres been nothing but contempt and aggravation in my shoulders
I feel it when I fall asleep, and every day I rise
There's no power left inside to try, so I say I'd rather die

But I'm so motherfucking scared that no one cares
So I'll lock myself in Brody's attic, adding knots to knotted hair
Bitch about my story, and how none of what I feel is fair
And sign it, "love, thebreathingbackwards:
Unimportant, unaware"

[Chorus: stairwell]
This day might be my last
This dark cloud will never pass
So cold I'll shatter like glass
Can you hear me?

This day might be my last
This dark cloud will never pass
So cold I'll shatter like glass

[Verse 2: yesterday]
Pickin' up the pieces
Cleaning up your mess
Yeah, I used to love you
Now you make me anxious
Talkin' like I'm toxic
Babe, I'm just depressed
Come through for the night
Lay your head on my chest

When the sun comes up
I might say you gotta go
Tell me how you want it baby
We can take it slow
Yeah, you're lying to my face
You don't think I'll ever know
If you're hoping for a chase
Put your faith in safer homes

Blowin' up my phone
Now you're asking for a re-do
I just want some dome
And that Gucci I can see through
Money ain't a problem
When you do it for the love
Keep my eyes on the prize
'Til I'm sittin up above
With a blunt in my mouth
And a knife on my tongue
Now my life's headin' south
And my legs are feeling numb
Yeah, my head's filled with doubt
Can't you tell that I'm dumb?
Put my life to an end
With an unloaded gun

[Chorus: stairwell]
This day might be my last
This dark cloud will never pass
So cold I'll shatter like glass
Can you hear me?

This day might be my last
This dark cloud will never pass
So cold I'll shatter like glass

[Verse 3: stairwell]
Never thought it would come to this
Feel the pain in my chest, put your nail in my wrist
Waking up's a struggle feeling like shit
Another new day, another plan to miss

I'm tired of taking ownership for all my missteps
I wanna feel something new, something deeper than this
Somethings I can't change, that's just a story that I say to make it go away

Don't you try to war off blame, you're the reason that I'm cold like it's the middle of the winter
I'm still fucked up from December
You can hear it in my timbre
I don't wanna remember
I'm shaken to my center

[Chorus: stairwell]
This day might be my last
This dark cloud will never pass
So cold I'll shatter like glass
Can you hear me?

This day might be my last
This dark cloud will never pass
So cold I'll shatter like glass