Clown

[Chorus]
All of my anger and all of my pain
Even if the days change, I'ma still feel the same
This tragic state is like a character trait
That I'm used to the world trying to take away
Are they laughing at you? Are they laughing with you?
Is there, is there a solution to the problems that persist to
Bring you down? I'm no clown
Even if my tears still amuse you

[Verse 1: Jamie Madrox]
It only takes one bad day to push you over the edge
But what happens when every day is bad and it never ends?
You can't put that kind of shit upon your loved ones and your friends
So you ride it out and when you need to you'll pretend
That everything is perfect and nothing could be better
All the while inside doing your best to keep it together
Oh you don't let the cracks and the false face show
That it's all falling apart but nobody needs to know
Inside voice, outside shine
Crooked-ass smile with a broke-down mind
Still living in denial and trying to waste more time
In search of all the answers but afraid of what you'll find
Believe me I've been there, believe me I've tried
No, I am not a quitter, no I'm not for suicide
I ate the shit that life threw at me and took it in stride
I'm immune to the pain, somewhat insane, but I'll survive

[Chorus]
All of my anger and all of my pain
Even if the days change, I'ma still feel the same
This tragic state is like a character trait
That I'm used to the world trying to take away
Are they laughing at you? Are they laughing with you?
Is there, is there a solution to the problems that persist to
Bring you down? I'm no clown
Even if my tears still amuse you

[Verse 2: Str8jaket]
Every day's the same in my mind
Where the pain lives, never show signs
Keep it inside 'cause the outside world never understands
Hatred by design
Ever wonder why people tend to laugh
When you're on the edge and you wanna die?
Thoughts of suicide (Thoughts of suicide)
Are the ones that all of your smiles hide
You laugh at anger 'til it comes to get you
Write your apologies now and like you got no issues
Suppress the feelings down so far your people miss you
And can't remember who you are beneath the tissue
It's just easier to hide behind a laugh
Find light on the darkest paths
Never let them see you hurt and use happiness as a mask
No matter the pain and anguish
Outside of your skin is dangerous
Don't vent to a troubled mind spent scribbled on different pages
Day by day ,we courageous, we faces of different ages
No matter gender or races, the feeling inside is faceless
Written are my true thoughts, a message inside a bottle
Floatin', hopin' someone will find it to help me through tomorrow

[Chorus]
All of my anger and all of my pain
Even if the days change, I'ma still feel the same
This tragic state is like a character trait
That I'm used to the world trying to take away
Are they laughing at you? Are they laughing with you?
Is there, is there a solution to the problems that persist to
Bring you down? I'm no clown
Even if my tears still amuse you

[Verse 3: Monoxide]
Alone at last, feel like a broken glass
When will this feeling pass? When will this feeling pass?
Is this all happenstance? Just luck I haven't had?
When will this feeling pass? When will this feeling pass?
And I just wanna dream while I keep having all these nightmares
Afraid to fall asleep 'cause all I see is dark inside there
Feeling obsolete and I just wish someone was right there
Pull me to my feet and let me know that there's some light there
Reeling in defeat, I'm so sick of feeling heat
From the people on the street, all of them made fun of me
Nothing clear and tough to see, what will be will come to be
All the fear and self-loathing, such negative energy
All the therapy and counseling, everyone's got a fee
And in the end they don't see, I just wanna be me
So it's best I'm left alone, though it seems like I'm on the brink
Let them say what they will say, I'll never care what they think

[Chorus]
All of my anger and all of my pain
Even if the days change, I'ma still feel the same
This tragic state is like a character trait
That I'm used to the world trying to take away
Are they laughing at you? Are they laughing with you?
Is there, is there a solution to the problems that persist to
Bring you down? I'm no clown
Even if my tears still amuse you