Clouded

[Verse 1]
Smoke clouds my eyes
Really can't decide
Who the fuck am I?
Fuck it, we go do or die
Journey through my mind, I bet you won't come back
Shit's on calm when my lights turn black
Watching demons talk with Jesus, crazy chats
And they mostly agree, what's the deal with that?
Back 'gainst the wall, so I can't step back
So I ain't really sure what I've been really looking at
Person in the mirror staring back is a king
Now I can't pick up, but my phone still rings
Yeah, I cried a little to reflect in the puddle
Threw a couple rocks to go with the rubble
External anger, internal struggle
External weakness, internal muscle
From the outside say the kid's so cool
For that same reason, yo, the kid's so full
Drownin' inside his thoughts, complexion
No lifeguards in this pool to protect him

[Verse 2]
Someone grabs him to save me
Redrawn light, but he's screaming erase me
From the outside, see, he seems so crazy
But if you saw the inside, could you really blame me?
But how could you see it?
Couldn't believe it
Memories to retrieve it
But you couldn't, so leave it
You couldn't walk my shoes
A couple mind to kinda find a flaw in every move
A chip in every two, saw puzzle feelin' loose
Trophy in my hands, still feel I'm about to lose
Yeah, some call it perfection
Me, I call it dumb ass shit that I'm stressin'
So I'm on some bomb ass shit for deflection
Tryna go negate lows instead of correct 'em
Cigarette lit for a light when it's dark
Sacrifice lungs for a little peace in the heart
Little feast for your thought, 'cause up's where I'm caught
Running back words, go, set, ready, on your mark
Always had a smile in a room full of problems
Everybody thought for some reason I could solve 'em
Always too scared to solve these equations
Laugh a whole lot just to hide where the pain is
Say I'm no different, say I'm on the same shit
The story go deeper than the spots where the paint chips