Closer to My Dreams (Part 2)

[Verse 1]
Second time around and now everything's changed
I wish they would've warned me everything will never be the same
When you step into the game and get a preview of the fame
Yet in reality there's only few people who know your name
I sit and think is it all worth it?
Broadcasting my mistakes like anybody's perfect
But mine's seem to stand out every single verse when
All I'm trying to do is be an inspiring person
It all backfires on me like I am cursed with
An indelible talent that time couldn't reverse and
I just make matters worse. Every single moment
They build you up to break you down and you don't even know it
When you get a little buzz that you never seem to see
And now they say that you've become who you never seemed to be
And your only intention is to try and be loved
And everyone who loved you yelling out "he suck."
Now I find myself in the middle trapped into the game
'Cause rap's about the only thing I have to vent the pain
And I try to keep friends, but they all seem to fade away
And now I'm just confined to every thought inside my brain
Whoever thought it'd change, the game never came with a warning
And I ain't even made it yet and I'm already more than
Tired of feeling judged for the emotions that I pour in
My lyrics contemplating what I value as importance
And every time I sort it, it seems to get distorted
And I just sacrifice my insides like an organ
But nothing seems to be working
'Cause all I ever really do is manage just
To put my business out without the management
They told me it was tough, but I didn't understand it yet
It's funny all the things they do for just a handed check
And I'm trying to avoid a trap I didn't plan to set
But I just end up falling in it like "damn it Jet!"
Now I'm just trying to breathe
'Cause I'm running out of air chasing every single dream
And all they do is compare and assume that you try to be
Another person just because his drive is similar, but see
I am different. Sometimes I make mistakes that I do regret
And sometimes I sit and wonder whether they do forget
I take steps forward, but I never move and yet
There's always something in me so determined I refuse to quit
And it's inspired by the fear of me losing it
So take all that you can get is what they tell me
But motivation is scarce and it's rare to see someone care to be
And I just seem to show emotions to those who don't care to see
Damn, when does it all really change
When you search, but the pursuit of happiness only brings pain
And it seems that every single thing that you've done has gone in vain
So even the thought of success never seems to ease the pain
And I can never forget where I came
From the bottom of the bottom to the top, everything seems to be the same
Only difference is no one ever notices your hopelessness
You only get judged by every person that you're open with
The closest sit and hope you quit, waiting like you're supposed to quit
But they spitefully encourage you for the most of it
And this is all playing out in my mind
While I simultaneously lay down every single line
And several emotions spill out my spirit every time
Found from deep within, and at times I wish I could keep 'em in
Damn. Will it make it all better if
I made everyone happy and I lost touch with me again?
And I just burry the torment beneath the surface
And cover 'em with the smiles and release 'em all in the verses
That's perfect, in person pretend that everything is sweet
So the pain is always there, but they just never really see
And it seems things are deeper than all of them'll see
And I pull it above the surface like I'm harvesting a seed
Just to watch the crops die and all of them are dreams
And losing hope surrounds me, I'm just caught up in between
And saying just what I feel is only part of the routine
But it makes everything worse as I just fall into a scheme
And repeat it with all the extras like I'm called to film a scene
Pouring all my privacy out, I'm doing all this for the team
And I just let it ease the pain, so go ahead and bring the fame
'Cause nothing ever seems to change, but it'll never be the same
Damn. And they never said it'd be the same
Thing that makes me better leave me mentally constrained
And it sucks that every girl I fell in love with
Treats me better in my dreams than they will ever do in public
Fuck it. Sucks when you have set goals
That you never seem to score, but you can't let go
Damn... I wish I seen this coming
I guess I'm just afraid of ending up becoming nothing