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[Verse 1]
Pencilin' on a pad
I been on my thoughts, like crazy, I need you bad
Prayers to the most high when I’m most high
Fuck a good day, I'm happier when I'm sad
I been on the road and speakin’ to no one else
The money come in low, I'm dealin' with what I'm dealt
This is for my unborn child, needing my help
I'm lookin' for the type of the freedom that I ain't felt
It's only gone to waste if you buyin’ a Gucci belt
But we Gucci when we excel and that coochi is not for sale
Damn, don’t you leave me when I rebel
My baby says she loves me, but she needs me to be myself
Room full of vultures, cool, I'm coastin’
You be boastin', chain on flex, like you be chokin'
Ain't no jokin’, I been floatin'
Off that green I'm smokin', they don't want this
Smoke when I step up, east side resident
DREAMCLUB president, made it out the ends and I'm the evidence
Still gotta check on my mama, make sure she good
She loves it when I come back for Christmas and eat the food
There's nothin' like a blessing that's precious to what you do
I'm learnin' to be honest with people that needed truth
I'm keepin' it one hundred, I'm hopin' you keep it, two
See, growin' is a process, I needed to see it through

[Chorus]
Is this what you want from me?
I give you all of me
What it's supposed to be
I'm learning on keepin' you closer
Scared that my heart's gone colder
Grindin' it out 'til it's over
It's how it goes, and now you know

[Verse 2]
Workin' it while I can
Promise is forever, I'm startin' to understand
The boulder's on my shoulders, I'm choosin' to take a stand
I gotta show the way for our people to make it out
I was youth club chilling
Kickin' ball when they gave the notice for eviction
Sixteen had about five bills for it
I gave it to my moms and told her how's that for it?
She told me that it's cool, that's at least a couple months
I could tell by the look on her face it wasn't enough
Fuck it, we just roll with the punches 'cause that's what's up
And our people would try and front
Acting like they got it, but fuck it, it's what they want
I never live my life through the vision of someone else
I really gotta see, get a feel for it for myself
Couple years back I was feelin' it with my health
Yeah, I put on weight, I was hidin' from what I felt
Bills, bills, bills had me feelin' like I ain't shit
Splashed a couple thousand, was strugglin' with the rent
Thinkin' to myself, "How I get this deep?
How I'm deep in the hole, and how my fam don't know?"
Tryna keep the smile good to avoid convo
But that shit build up and them tears build up
'Till you're lookin' for a shoulder you can lean on
Just to get the steam off, thinkin' why I kept closed up
Damn

[Chorus]
Is this what you want from me?
I give you all of me
What it's supposed to be
I'm learnin on keepin' you closer
Scared that my heart's gone colder
Ridin' it out 'til it's over
It's how it goes, and now you know

[Post-Chorus]
That I been patient lately
And though I been racin' lately
All I know is love can save
Ahh, yeah (Ahh, yeah)
Prayin' that this world don't take me, no
Everything I gave to my heart and soul
Remember for somethin' that was real and not false
Love me as I am, not when I go , like I know