Closer 2 My Dreamz

[Intro]
I did this beat a couple years ago
For my mixtape, Glorification III
I always thought it was the perfect venting beat, ya know?

[Verse]
A lot of things been weighing down on my mind
I’m hopin’ that I have time to put it down in a rhyme
Yes I, am, the voice of the quiet ones
The peace for the violent ones
You can tell me any negative thing that you could fathom up
I don’t sit down for the nonsense so I’m standin’ up
You talkin’ toilet bowl talk but when I hop up on the mic
Plumbers see how easily that I could back it up
Enough of the witty stuff
Let’s get to talkin’ bout the gritty stuff
Paris just got hit & I’m wonderin’ why
‘Cause deep inside of the statistics a child had died
If it was yours, how would you react to that?
Would you be mad if Paris said “We bout to clap them back"?
Or is it peace that you seek like when I rap on tracks
Or is the enemy Meek you hit ‘em back to back?
Whoaaa.. I need a better feelin’
I smoke to get rid of the pain but need a better reason
My friends think that I’m crazy because I’m chiefin’
I ain’t sayin’ I live rougher than them but they don’t see it
I don’t really talk in person like how I rap
I put it down in a pad & hope I never look back
I wanna laugh & live good give money to my moms
Go on tour meet fans smoke weed be calm
But.. Life is just a game that I’m tryna play
Lookin’ for the cheat codes lookin’ for another way
Hope to see another day pray to see the moon
Sky’s dark right now but it’s clearin’ out soon
Looked at all 4 walls inside of my room
Stuck in a box feelin’ like this could be part of my doom
Or be part of the growth, somethin’ that I could show
I keep takin’ my last 5 & put it down for the smoke
Change always comes when you never need it
But accepting it is easier than tryna beat it
You learn more from your mistakes but don’t repeat it
‘Cause the pain doesn’t leave if you always tryna keep it
Spread love ‘cause hate is a disease
It’ll kill you faster & do it with ease
You feel alone don’t worry ‘cause history reads
That when Adam was alone God gave him Eve
God give me peace, I’m still walkin’ in the dark
By choice ‘cause I didn’t really know where to start
Look in my heart like how could I reverse this process
Ignorance is given don’t bother to stop it
Open up ya eyes to the truth
Watch what you say it's in the minds of the youth
They look up to us thinkin' we are Gods
Meanwhile we look at them wishin' we was y'all
Please take me back to the better days
God show me better ways
Cause I'm just tryna get it live right cuz I'm tired bein' broke
So fed up with the bullshit I started to choke
No CPR when ya neighbor is dyin'
We don't trust anybody we think everybody is lyin'
No napkins for anyone cryin'
How we gon' make a change if nobody is tryin'
I done came a long way from the heartbreak
How much pain could a heart take?
How much unconditional love can one heart make
These are words that the heart creates I hope that you could relate
I know things seem tough now
We just really need love now
Cops in the streets even if our hands up we gotta duck down
Looks like the government don't really give a fuck now
I'm scared of what my generation wants to do
We all have choices what's stoppin' you?
This is turning pain into audible
Therapy for the people who are wanting the truth
More darkness will never get rid of the black
This for all the quiet kids who used to sit in the back
This for all of the adults who would say we wild
No we just growin' up I was bein' a child
This year I done lost so much but not me
I paid for it, even in the U.S. it's not free
Get the green I ain't lettin' nobody stop me
Even when I am alone I know that I got me
Don't worry bout the struggles I face I'll make it through
To my beautiful lover just know that I'll make it to you
I'm good I'm great even when I really ain't
Felt the horns of the devil & the halo of a Saint
I know good times are comin' I feel it
Lord knows I really need it
You gotta believe it, keep it in ya mind gotta see it
As if it's right in front you now go & ahead & reach it
Closer to my dreams but I'm wide awake
How much info can the mind take?
I'm so close, I'm almost there when it's too late
You won't know who you messin' wit like a blind date
That's my word when I'm sayin' that I could be one of the greatest
You're lovin' to hate it it's fuckin' amazin' how could you suck what I'm sayin'
& put it up & rephrase it I know it sucks to be waitin'
But I am what is your patience
Can not stand to see, I stand for me
& if you wanna kill the kid, get a plan B
Cause plan A is mine, to rhyme some type of crime
Like Columbine, the ball is mine, it's morphin time
Don't fuck with what can not be fucked with
You'll be fucked quick
You don't wanna try your luck with
The Grim Reaper it's me with a scythe, give it up jit
Cause if you really wanna cyph, you'll get sliced
Just roll the dice, I'm cold as ice, hold your life
You'll notice I'm, souless, why?
It's told that I'm the hopeless guy
Spittin' hope in rhymes, JT