Close My Eyes

[Verse 1] (Mekdes)
Face down, and eyes shut
Why am I a stranger in my own mind?
Just get me to leave yeah out of sight
Oh my

[Pre-Chorus] (Mekdes)
Don't feed me anymore, no
Can't be the animal, no
Please don't make it stronger

[Verse 2] (Mekdes)
I do my best to get away
Won't play along with it
Making a miss in my head
I gotta get over it
And I dont really wanna face it
So I am the only to blame yeah

[Chorus] (Mekdes)
And everytime I close my eyes
I get a little scared and I
I'm running from the things I hide
And everytime I close my eyes
I'm trying to find a way out
Im [?] with the lights around, yeah uh
And everytime I close my eyes

[Verse 2] (rosegold)
Uh baby, I'm starting to shake and calling me crazy
Please don't talk about me, yeah
I need love around me, yeah
I thought I needed inspiration
But what I needed was some balance
I need no balance on my bankaccount
Balance in the way I'm living life, I need to stretch it out
Balance in my body, got these toxins, gotta puke it out
I'm running so my thoughts don't
Might run in to my old folks, while running in my sportsclothes

[Pre-Chorus] (rosegold)
And it's okay if you don't like me
Not everyone has good taste
And I'm always on the same damn page
It's okay if you don't understand it

[Chorus] (Mekdes)
And everytime I close my eyes
I get a little scared and I
I'm running from the things I hide
And everytime I close my eyes
I'm trying to find a way out
Im [?] with the lights around, yeah uh
And everytime I close my eyes

[Bridge] (rosegold)
Since I was 11 I have known
That I was born, living and die alone
Had to my heart to the smoke
Still I come alive in the smoke
It's hard for me to breathe through the dust
And it's hard for me to see through the lust
Pressure, pressure, pressure
I'm trying my hardest to hold it together
I swear that n*gga cry right now
Close my eyes and then leave you here
Count you in and you count me out
And that's [?] can't sleep this year
It's hard, all this shit that's very us
Thank God, that I came this far
To be a star, got a star of a spot
So it's now or never
Close my eyes and I see a boy trying to do better
So Imma do better
I'm scared that I'm losing my own [?]
I'm scared that I'm doing the same thing
I'm scared that my dreaming a real thing
Imma stay right in this [?]

[Chorus] (Mekdes)
And everytime I close my eyes
I get a little scared and I
I'm running from the things I hide
And everytime I close my eyes
I'm trying to find a way out
Im [?] with the lights around, yeah uh
And everytime I close my eyes