​cigarettes in the parking lot // going thru the motions

Maybe if things were a little bit different I wouldn’t feel this way
Everytime I goto sleep thinking that tomorrow will better its another day its not
Im at war with all my thoughts
Yeah I go thru this a lot
Keep the pack up in my sock
Yeah u said that you’d b there but now ur not
But its okay smoking cigarettes in the parking lot

Ah back n forth
Hot n cold
Chasing money baby chasing after pots of gold
Problems stupid bs got a lot of those
All up in my phone then the day gon leave me alone

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I been going thru the motions
Tie two blocks to my legs and jumping in the ocean
Im tryna jus do it
I knew they wouldn’t notice
Adderall and weed you know I’m smoking on the potent
And I been getting so high
Just to pass the time
Bc I feel stupid when ur on my mind
My life is a loop its got me feeling loopy
Goddamn
My lifes a fucking movie its a horror
Diving face first in the water
Im a lamb up for the slaughter
Got a smile on my face but its a waste bc I got nothing to offer
Lob a benzo into my lemonade
I swear this shit is not it I hope that I fcking ends today