Chutes and Ladders

Just when I thought
That my truth erased confusion
That’s when I asked myself
What's real and what's illusion
I can't believe that when I close my eyes
All I want will come to me so
I’m gonna look inside myself
And see what I don’t want to see
I don’t know how things should be
I don’t know what you want from me
I can’t justify what you can’t see
Cause you can’t see inside of me
And I don’t want identity
All I want’s consistency
Just when I thought
That my truth erased confusion
That’s when I asked myself
What's real and what's illusion
They said life’s a game
All full of chutes and ladders
Then its not if I win
But how I play that matters right
I don’t know how this should be
I don’t know what you want from me
I can’t justify what you can’t see
Cause you can’t see inside of me
And I don’t want identity
All I want’s consistency
Open my eyes for the first time
And make my own decisions
Start feeling all I see
And feel emotion revision
And all above I just need some time
Between me and my heart
Between me and my mind
Some time to get things straight
Before I close my eyes and sead my fate