Choose To Be

I wasn't expecting you
You took me by surprise
And I don't know if you can see it
But it's right behind my eyes
The answer to a question
That I didn't know I'd asked
And you know
I didn't believe the tides
Could wash over me so fast
And I've never
Seen this before
And I've seen so much
Oh god I wonder what it takes
To understand happiness
And I
Am standing on the edge
And I'm not afraid to fall
I'm not dying
I'm not hiding
I am not anything at all
But this time
I choose to be happy
You know I never believed
That I could have something good
Didn't think that it was possible
Didn't think I could
But now I'm kicking down these walls
And you're tearing at these chains
And I am starting to believe
That I must be insane
Cause I've
Never seen you before
And I've seen so much
Oh god I wonder what it takes
To understand happiness
And I
Am standing on the edge
And I'm not afraid to fall
I'm not dying
I'm not hiding
I am not anything at all
But falling
And I don't care where I land
I'm falling
And now I feel like I can stand
Cause this time
I choose to be