Childhood Trauma

Turn the lights off
I’m tryna sleep
Feeling safer under covers
Wide awake
Since mid-last week
Or month
Fuck
Wake up
Shake Up
Tryna keep it together
It’s been rough
Been tough luck
Crash site from last night
Meteoric
It’s covered
Guilt and bourbon
Little childhood trauma
Uh
Wrote you this song
Cause I fear I’ll be forgotten
This anxiety has gotten unbearable
I don’t wanna worry you
Or keep you there
Lying awake
I’d dream with you
If I could just fall asleep

If I told you that you’re bad for me
Would you run away with me
You make me wanna stay alive
Come to love myself through emerald eyes
I can’t explain
I can’t escape
The thoughts
The urges
You encourage in my brain
Hand shapes a revolver
And there’s one in the chamber
Just some childhood trauma

Aye
Grew up a safe home
With words to encourage
That’s dangerous
For dreamers like me
Embrace the delusion
I’m often let down
Realities grounding
It’s fucking with me
Finding it harder to sleep
Harder to breathe
Harder to look in the mirror
Then there comes you
Through emerald eyes
My reflections easy to bare
Aye
I drank
Just a little too much
It hurts
But never nearly enough
To replicate all the hurt
That I’ve caused and done
I’m tryna get even
Sunsets feel so fucking long lately
Tryna make it to tomorrow
Tryna make it so I tell you

If I told you that you’re bad for me
Would you run away with me
Make me wanna stay alive
Come to love myself through emerald eyes
I can’t explain
I can’t escape
The thoughts
Urges you encourage in my
Hand shapes a revolver
That’s some childhood trauma
Cmon
If I told you that you’re bad for me
Would you run away with me
You make me wanna stay alive
Come to love myself through emerald eyes
I can’t explain
I can’t escape
The thoughts
The urges
You encourage in my brain
Hand shapes a revolver
And there’s one in the chamber
Just childhood trauma

My friends in my head
Feel like enemies
These days
Heart and my head
Need some rest
Know I keep saying
To bear with me
Damn
Your heart’s like my therapy