Chewing on Bees

I don’t wanna fall again
If no one’s gonna be there to catch me when i land
And if i’m not gonna see your face again

I wanna know what it feels like
To fall through the sky
To land on the ground
All my guts spilling out on the floor
My soul isn’t there anymore

And all of my regrets
And everything profound i ever said
Everything i did
Left there for no one to see
And no one to remember me

I wanna know what it feels like to drown
To lose my breath under the water
Swept under the waves
And the sounds of your screams as i
Struggle beneath the current
Pulling me under

But eventually you give up
Cuz you don’t wanna drown too
Fuck, i don’t even blame you
Cuz i’d do the same thing
I’d do the same thing
I’d do the same thing

So i’ll sit here alone
Writing this song
While you’re out there alone
Probably drinking
And thinking too much

And i’ll smash this coffee cup
And scream out your name
As i pull the trigger
Send the bullet through my brain
And i’m gone