Chel-C Lately

[Chorus: Doc Gruesome]
Lately I've been feeling like I wanna fuckin' die (Like I wanna fucking die)
Lately I've been feeling like my whole life is a lie (Like my whole life is a lie)
Like every time I try to get a little peace of mind (Little peace of mind)
I got a pussy want to hate on me and put me to the side
Lately I be feeling like I wanna fuckin' die (Like I wanna fucking die)
Lately I be feeling like I shouldn't evеn try (Like I shouldn't even try)
Likе maybe I should pull my fuckin' noose up to the sky (Pull my noose up to the sky)
And maybe you'll rethink the way you treat another guy (Treat another guy)

[Verse 1: Doc Gruesome]
I ain't never been a normal happy kid
I grew up around drugs before I knew what they did (Knew what they did)
Always had a little rock inside my sock to keep from coppers (to keep from coppers)
Homies handle more choppers than a fuckin' helicopter pilot
Bitch I keep a couple on me, no fucks to give (No fucks to give)
Better have it than to need it, that's the way we gotta live (That's the way we gotta live)
Even as a child I was always feeling stressed out (Stressed out)
Livin' in the trap, my fuckin' parents sold meth out
Bitch, do you really know what the fuck it's like? (What the fuck it's like)
Bigots kickin' in my door because they fiendin' off a pint (They fiending off a pint)
And I ain't never really ate, if I'm lucky, once a day (Once a day)
So me and my brother found other ways to get paid (Ways to get paid)
I moved out on my own at fifteen (At fifteen)
Nothing new, just continuing to scheme (Continuing to scheme)
Stopped going to school 'cause I wasn't making money (Nah)
Show up, sell, leave is all it really was to me, bitch

[Chorus: Doc Gruesome]
Lately I've been feeling like I wanna fuckin' die (Like I wanna fucking die)
Lately I've been feeling like my whole life is a lie (Like my whole life is a lie)
Like every time I try to get a little peace of mind (Little peace of mind)
I got a pussy want to hate on me and put me to the side
Lately I be feeling like I wanna fuckin' die (Like I wanna fucking die)
Lately I be feeling like I shouldn't even try (Like I shouldn't even try)
Like maybe I should pull my fuckin' noose up to the sky (Pull my noose up to the sky)
And maybe you'll rethink the way you treat another guy (Treat another guy)

[Verse 2: Doc Gruesome]
Sometimes it get in my brain more than a little bit (A little bit)
I want to fucking shoot my face until it turn into a mist (Into a mist)
Deadweight a bad bitch twerking, taking pics (Twerking, taking pics)
I'm the body in the back, switch you out with moving clips (Bitch)
Fuck all of your family bitch and fuck you too (And fuck you too)
I don't care about myself so I don't give a fuck my dude
I am self-loathing, everybody know me
Hold your fucking hands up if you feeling lonely (Ugh)
Never been weak but bitch I know when it's my time (Know when it's my time)
I squeeze and release 'cause I've always wanted to fly
Sincerely I apologize for everyone I'm 'bout to hurt
Livin' like I dig and put your body in the dirt (Body in the dirt)
And I feel trapped in my own insecurities
There is no medicine, none that is curing me
Help! Obviously I can't do it by myself
This is me reaching out so it's under my belt