Chasing Closure

Now I feel ill everyday, and I stand in my grave
And I wait, for things to change
Around me, around me
Now I feel ill everyday, and I stand in my grave
And I wait, for things to change
Around me, around me

Because you can't force someone to love you
You can't force someone to love you
You can't force someone to love you
You can't force someone to love you

As I look back and cringe at all the mistakes I made
Then I spent years trying to better myself
And I knew you were doing rough
So I tried my best to accomadate you
Make you feel loved
But it wasn't enough

And I truly feared, we'd drift apart
Even if we couldn't be togethor
Thought maybe, we could be friends
And just talk, cause I didn't want to lose you

But now you give me the cold shoulder
You won't text back no matter what
I just try to shoot the shit
But my shot lands right in the trash
Now I don't know what to do
Said I'd wait, I'd wait for you
And you said you couldn't promise me
Anything in return

Or this wouldn't work
And you couldn't heal
And I couldn't better me, be a better me, become a better me

But now I get nothing from you
No text in two weeks, two weeks that's half a month
And I'm going soon, to another place
And the clock ticks down, and I miss your face

And I forget things a little
Sometimes I get scared
That those memories, will just dissapear
And you said you valued them alot
But I don't want memories right now
I want what we had right now
And maybe, it wasn't perfect
But that's okay with me, okay with me

Now that there's no signal from you
I'm just trying to figure out
Should I move on, but I can't move on
Because I don't know what
What to do
Should I try and live life
But when I think of that I can't
Take that step
Cause I have a little part of me
Little part of me
That hasn't given up hope yet
That hasn't given up hope yet

Cause when I download that app
Or shoot that text
I know things are done for good
And if they're done for good
I dont know what I can do
What I'll do
Cause I really don't wanna star this
New era quite yet

I miss being less alone
And when I felt alone
Atleast I was alone with you

[One more vocal take]