​change myself

[Chorus: Kit3]
Trying to understand why I'm here
Keep it to myself 'cause I'm too scared
Finally I can go, I won't say goodbye
It's my choice 'cause you know that I tried
Silver love in my drink
It's so hard, I try so hard to change
I try to be okay, I tried afterlife
All this pain will once subside

[Verse 1: Kit3]
All my pain will last in the end
I wanna change, so hard to change
I hid my soul, it's just hard to change
Will you save my life?
I'll die on my own

[Chorus: Kit3]
Trying to understand why I'm here
Keep it to myself 'cause I'm too scared
Finally I can go, I won't say goodbye
It's my choice 'cause you know that I tried

[Verse 2: osquinn]
I'm sitting here with all the ghosts in my hallway
Thinking about the bettеr days when all the problems fadе away
Fifty mil' that's all I want and I'ma go away
Goin' somewhere far away, spending all my better days
I see the you in me and that shouldn't be possible
Run into some obstacles and turn it into particles
Lil' angel shawty, she done played me like a cardinal
Dove right in my armory and stole right out my arsenal
You're playing with my head, you won't get away with that
I like to do what I want, if you're okay with that
I'm on a short leash, upside down just like a bat
My people watching, they plotting my aftermath
I'm feeling trapped in like I've got claustrophobia
Endless mazes, I'm trapped in my utopia
Looking for a fix I bought straight from Cambodia
Being left on seen is like my worst phobia