Change It

Wish I could go back, and make changes to the past
So that I can offset, all of this regret
Conscience won't forgive, I cannot repent
So part of me will forever resent
The part that made those dumb decisions
Life's a word doc with no revisions
I wish that I could change it
But alas, I just can't

[Verse 1:]
Fifth grade got in-school suspension
And I was humiliated through that forced redemption
Wish I'd known that middle school friends are fake
Wish I'd started rapping ground like Drake
Had so much energy with which I could create
Coulda become the Colorado Matt Ox
Have concerts at the Denver Black Box
And I wish I could change, how back in eighth grade
When it came to the girls, I was a huge lame
I was trippin' and simpin', bitcoin' bootlickin'
Over girls that would never ever like me back
Wish I was like Thanos and I could just snap
My fingers and erase the mistakes that I made in the past
But I just can't

[Verse 2:]
And I wish I learned to stand up for myself
When they called me an autistic future incel
Were like "Damn I really fuckin' wish, that this stupid fuckin' 'tist"
"Would just hurry up and slit, his useless fucking wrists"
"So we don't have to see your ugly face shit"
And I would just stand there and I would take it
Their hating was a coin, I was the vending machine
I was trippin' without sipping' on any lean
And sometimes it really seems
I can't go a single day without fucking something up
Moments where I feel so fed up
I almost wish I that was never born
Because I feel so motherfuckin' torn
They say you only get one life, ay
But it cuts me like a knife, ay
All the stress and the strife, ay
But I gotta keep up the fight, ay
Writing these raps is the thing that keeps me sane
Writing these raps keeps me from losing my brain