Catherine

Wishing I was close to you
I know I’ve been distant lately
And baby if I tell the truth
I’m going through my own shit too
And I don’t wanna bring you down no more. I know you like to play it cool. Your silence kinda makes my heart ignore the shit we need to do
Cos you’ve been distant lately, it’s kinda fucking with my mood. And time with you feels lonely girl, I don’t know if you’ll see this through
And even though you’ve been so cagey, it still hurts to let you go
Cos I ain’t got time for no heartbreak, but life goes hard and so. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Hold me in your prayers girl, it’s time for me to go
I can’t be what you want me to, I can’t lose myself in you. And even though my heart breaks, even though it hurts
Girl I can’t be what you want me to. I can’t lose myself in you. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
It’s crazy how you never really know when the end is, and I been trying fill the hole you left in me with friendship, tryna spend some time with some homies I ain’t seen for a while now. Been speaking bout’ my feelings a bunch. And I’ve been sleeping enough
And I’m a ghost in my own house, scared to see my mirror cos the eyes looking back seem cold now
Colder than our home on the night that you first left, it’s crazy how in hindsight shit can seem perfect
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And I’ve been feeling fucking worthless thinking how to make it work, tryna finish songs to get my music back in place but first, I wish that we could speak for real. Kinda need to know my feelings ain’t just fear. Kinda need to know we fucking mean it. I’ve smacked my fucking face against the ceiling tryna grow. You’re closer than some blood but girl it’s time for me to go. So hold me in your prayers and we could catch up in a couple years. Maybe use some hindsight, even shed a couple tears... speak about our feelings
I wish you all the best girl. I wish that we could try to make it work but it’s the end girl. My bags are packed, my Uber’s en route this book is closing. I’ve been feeling fucking lonely ain’t shit changing cos it’s over girl

Changed my mind
I can’t be what you want me to, I can’t lose myself in you
Take your time
I’ll hold you in my prayers girl, hold me in your prayers too

Hold me in your prayers girl, it’s time for me to go
I can’t be what you want me to, I can’t lose myself in you. And even though my heart breaks, even though it hurts
Girl I can’t be what you want me to. I can’t lose myself in you. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀