Catharsis

[Part I]

[Verse 1]
Finding my catharsis, dive beneath the surface
Look into your eyes and I feel so nervous
Dreams resurface from inside of those galaxies as reality
Blends into a blissful form of fantasy from this tragedy
Angelic figurines balance on my shower head
Rain water pourin' down on me, can't get out of my bed
Can't get out of my head, and for some reason, you can't either
The memory of me so desperately tryin' to please her, I'm a peoplе pleaser (Uh)
But sometimеs I feel like I've drifted
Purple lightning courses through my skin, I think I'm addicted
Circles twistin' in the heavy wind, my breathing's constricted
Suffer consequences of my sin, it's all self-inflicted
And all the while, I keep on dancin' to the melody
Seldomly find understanding, but I still search for it endlessly
Feel the rain beneath my toes as I sink further below
Pretend that it's a secret, even though everybody knows
That I'm...

[Part II]

[Verse 2]
Fucked up, and I have been for a while now
Took the knife to my skin and ripped my insides out
Vulnerability exposed ever since I proposed
Photosensitivity, I hate how I'm composed, uh
Still compared to a healthier man
One that I'm much guiltier than, but what do you expect?
Still regret the night that I overslept, I was a wreck...
But the silver raven's still here to collect
Got unpaid debts, it's amazin' that I'm still breathin'
I think I'm supposed to be grievin', but I ain't started the process
Huh, no, I ain't making no progress
I just keep startin' new projects, and hope the last one is forgotten...
But someone always remembers
And they stoke the flames of my dyin' embers
Is this the catharsis that I'm after?
Or a fleetin' distraction before the end of the chapter? (I don't know)

[Outro]
Where'd my catharsis go today?
Where'd my catharsis go today?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Uh, ayy