Catharsis Lyrics
[Intro]
Separate faces help him to walk and cross the tiles
As he justifies existence with flinches and false smiles
And the hand that used to feed his hunger shriveled from the cold
He's borrowed more than he can pay, his debts are getting old
The cracks had always been on show, the spirit always broke
The bottle always emptied well before the candles smoked
Tobacco always there on cue in someone else's glass
Someone else's secrets become someone else's path
[Chorus 1]
I know you well, I know you felt
Like it should've been someone else who fell
But I'll never forget your face
You melt into my life
[Verse 1]
I want the attention that she's getting
From your loving arms
You let me soak your face into my memory
Like you want me, and you had me
Wanting more as I don't know you
I don't own you, I just sew you
Into pieces of this fabric that I wear over my shoulder
[Verse 2]
Like a dream, you fill me up
And make me cold, just like a soldier
Trains her mind to do the killing
Even though he isn't willing
I have pain, and I am cold
Without your heat to make me bold
Just forget that we're not molded
We're just solitary soldiers
[Verse 3]
Given up on all this love stuff
It's made up and we're just older
I give up on you, we're over
I want reciprocal lovers
I want trust, and I want safety
I need space, and I need chasing
I want to feel that I'm the only girl
Around you who can know you
[Verse 4]
But I want to see you luring
Other women who can't own you
I want to see their faces
When you make them lose their graces
When you make them feel they're placeless
Like a chain around an object that keeps moving
You're a concept of a man and of an object
[Verse 5]
You are everything I wanted
All I seem to crave
Like a hero needs to save
Except when I get up close
There is a maggot on the rose
Like a magpie stealing shiny things
There's sometimes diamonds, sometimes tin
[Chorus 2]
You are my darkness, and you understand
I don't want anything but your hand
Just hold me steady, hold the frame
And I'll shoot again now
[Verse 6]
I can't stop thinking about you
And if you're stripping me down to
My brittle bones and crumbled joints
These open wounds just need some salt
Oh, it would be better if you left
If I can't see you, I can't step
Into the light you've cast about you
I can't have you, but I want you
[Chorus 3]
This obsession is not letting me slide
I feel I'm damaging myself to stay alive
I am destroying all I have to let this burn easily
A little flame is not so dangerous on its own