Carlton says: Find it. It’s still there

“[and] interesting, [ ] connecting to my current situation and you know my friends from the past [ ], who, sometimes when I talk to him [kind of goes] preacher [on me], which is [fun] but I’ve not been able not to tolerate that before I had cancer, but now I’m totally into it. And [ ] one of his, one of his sermons he gave to me one day was, “You know, when you’re, when you’re feeling down and you feel yourself slipping, you have to access that inner actress in you, you have to do the thing that you used to do when you stepped down to the stage and you just got to pretend, with all your might –“ you know, like that – he didn’t say exactly those words, but that’s [ ] the thing [it] was – you got to really, you got to find that, that, inside, that, inside you. Because it’s there. It’s still there. You know, even when you’re not on stage. It’s still there. And [so] I have done that. I have had days where I thought, “Okay, I’ve got to find that on-stage Clair. Got to find that – I can do this – you’re not going to [ ] that – I cannot –“