Cantaloupe’s and Natural Calm

Sitting in this comfort inn
Man workings got me fucked up
Slow down
Swear to god im bout to
Lose my mind and hit the
Road now
Work and go to sleep wake up
Repeat thats how it goes now
8 pm or something i dont know
This towns a joke

Got some canteloupes and
Natural calm I think ill be alright
Ill write a section for my blessings
What I got and what I dont
Should probably lay down close
My eyes around 11, probably won't
Cause I stress too much
Like Im obsessed with it
I swear anxietys my bitch
And ima undress it
Or maybe address it
Fuck it I talk about too much
Summer went by way too quick
2 days turned into 2 months
It's hot as fuck in September
Pounding in my left temple
Cause this bed sucks
I would probably give my left nut
To be stress free
On an island in the sea
On a jet ski
With a breeze
Flowing through my teeth
On a beach
Sipping tea
Under the trees

Sometimes I think about what if
And I forget about what isn't
I swear it's like I'm locked inside my mind
In a prison
Ima shine I don't give a shit
I'll just learn to deal with it
This room is cold and dark
And man I really just ain't feeling it
But call of duty helps me pass
The time until I get back
If you tryna 1v1 you probably need to sit back
Who i used to be care free man I Miss that
Shoutout to my past, current me here's a diss track

Fuck your stupid panic disorder you hypochondriac
Life is too short to be missing out I used to smoke and laugh
After work sitting in my car til the sunlight
Rolling up then hit the Xbox feeling alright
Yeah, shoot for the stars right?
How can I reach em when gravity just hits me broad side
Fuck it, I'm diving in to the summit
Maybe I'll make it through and say it wasn't so bad was it?

So I thought about a hook but I said fuck it ima write it out
Good job, good friends tell me what’s to cry about?
Copenhagen on my mind I guess I’m bout to give in
That shit been with me every single lyric that I’ve written
I guess, it’s a part of me
Yes, it’s a problem
It’s a battle with some demons man I wonder how I got em
I’ve been, at the bottom
I’ve been, full throttle
Need to slow it down a little bit
Ferrari to Miata
This, office that I’m sitting in a home away from home
No i in team but I would rather sit alone
And day dream of what happens when you up and leave your castle
To another country but i wonder is it worth the hassle?
It wasn’t, maybe it was, yeah I don’t know exactly
I was searching for some artificial things to make me happy
But I’m glad I did it
I Found peace for a minute
I been feeling empty yeah
But Fuck it ima Keep living