Can’t Sleep

[Intro: Woman Speaking]
I learned...How to be loved and taken care of
Because I couldn’t have gotten through the year without . .
I...I learned how to be loved and taken care of . .

[Verse: Sparrow]
Yeah...You know, I don’t have a video, a written letter
Shit, I don’t even have just one picture of us together
It’s as if we never even existed - Did it happen?
Or was it all just in my head? It’s disastrous
I feel weaker than bent twigs - Just send my death!
I hear their laughters and the jeers at my expense
The punchline, I’ve become it cause I’m pleading to go back
To find a chance to see you again
I’d literally give everything I have
And grief’s gonna dispatch, judge, and sentence me
I sense this one isn’t giving me the pass I need
The jury is out on my soul
And it’s quick-passing judgement on us both
Sure to find revenge and avenge itself all at once
With this hurt that mortifies
It’s like a big black hole, pilfering who is me
'Till existing is both the best and only option I see
I hold my own love-torn insides in my grips
Shredded into million short lives like some movie clips
So view the best in me get massacred and chopped up
Love - I swore it was the one of my life
But screw it! Just slit, stab, and gash my flesh!
If I gasp for oxygen just shove that sword
On in to the left section of my chest
But you better get all of it in there though
So the handle’s all that’s left
It’s hollow and barren, so I can handle it
I just gotta know for sure there’s nothing left
That could possibly allow another heart to prosper
Just long enough o watch it all go for naught! Fuck!
Nothing looks right! Something isn’t right
It just gets darker and darker
Yeah, my inner shine’s glow
Where did I go? I don’t know
All I know is I’m not home
The further from you
The farther I go from my soul
So I beg you - Don’t let me go!
If I slip I’ll quickly plummet
‘Till I split bricks like Quickrete that was mis-mixed
Been love stricken with so many mixed emotions
Sent into an abyss so sick I think I’d fit beneath rock-bottom lows
Shut the book and just let my dust settle as soot where it must
And turn this urn up, bottom’s up
Spread instead of shed the salted tears I didn’t cry
Ashes to ashes; no more stresses sighed - Dust to dust
My Passion threw me right into the fire
My love is gonna fight this though it isn’t giving up
Nothing to stop this drive
Refs won’t call a charge, so I step aside
Couldn’t stop it if I tried; plus I’m not gonna try
I won’t lie, I try for what inspires me - With you
Sharing this life, and you might not see it like I do
And that’s just fine
My optometrist barely sees my visions right
My sights, I set
I’m staring into the greener eyes on the other side
The irises of your eyes
The apple of mine and the love of my life
Christ and five disciples will fail to vary my direction
Might seem abusive to myself
I grasp all that this risk is all mine
Life’s heist stole all I have known
And I will not fail to remember it
I give my word of truth to you
I hand all I can hold, all to myself
And if I miss out, it’s my fault
My rights, I know, I will not fail!
I deserve this! I can’t purchase what this is worth
It’s as priceless as our life on this Earth
My yearn for this is surfacing, and I assure you this
I will earn it, yes
My cure to this hurt is when my lips and yours press
I have pure love internally for you
That will exist eternally - I’m serious as can be!
You’re all that’s this man can dream
But I can’t dream because I can’t sleep
Yeah...You’re all that I can dream
But I can’t dream...Cause I can’t sleep
All that I could dream, but I can’t dream
Cause I can’t sleep