Can’t Get It Off

Man, I hate when I feel like this
Rising above emotion to the thinking of God, yo

[Verse 1]
I got a cloud floating over me
Lately I’ve been noticing my total vibe and energy ain’t where it’s supposed to be
Always in a dry mood
Can’t seem to recapture my stride, dude, no matter how many times I try to
I once felt similar
I don’t wanna do nothin’ but shoot ball, come home and listen to the Minister
The skies look sinister
It’s like I’m inside of a storm with the calm sitting outside the perimeter
Anxieties I can’t release ‘em
My dreams dangling a foot in front of me but somehow I can’t reach ‘em
I’m gettin’ kinda frustrated
Don’t you hate it when you gotta come up off some money when you just made it
Like damn, what do this mean?
It’s like things gettin’ more messed up the more brother try to fix things
I’m just tryna warn you
I’m at a point where not being happy feels normal

[Chorus]
I can’t get it off
It’s like a hundred pound weight strapped to me
Can’t run and can’t walk
I can’t get it off
Straight jackin’, feet shackled with some duct tape covering my mouth
I’m just tryna be a grown man, grown man
I’m just tryna be a grown man, a grown man, yeah

[Verse 2]
Now my spirit ain’t broken, just not a lot of words spoken
I’m walkin’ ‘round goin’ through the motions
Nighttime approachin’
I’m overdosing on peace as it soaks in, silence is my close friend
I’m blocking out the deep hurt
Wish I could put my life in reverse ‘cause I’m wearing regret like a t-shirt
Wish I had a precursor to see first
But even with these quirks, I’m knowin’ that my issue could be worse
Anger level rising, I’m tryna get over the hump
But I’m coming up short as a fire hydrant
I’m listening to wise men
But if you don't apply what they’re advising, results shouldn’t be surprising
I’m seeing things plainly
I wish I could point the finger at somebody else but I gotta blame me
And shaking off this mess now
A waste of time like tryna wipe a tattoo off with a wet towel

[Chorus]
I can’t get it off
It’s like a hundred pound weight strapped to me
Can’t run and can’t walk
I can’t get it off
Straight jackin’, feet shackled with some duct tape covering my mouth
I’m just tryna be a grown man, grown man
I’m just tryna be a grown man, a grown man, yeah

[Verse 3]
I just wanna stay in bed
Bad intentions in my head, and I ain’t even takin’ no meds
It took a minute to add it
I had to fall into some madness just to appreciate how good I had it
Folks smiling and laughing, bro
You see ‘em at the job and at the store but how many of ‘em are really happy though
False status and matrimony
I keep going even when I’m lonely
‘cause I got people depending on me
Another thing that ails me —
If I wasn’t myself and came to me for some advice, what would I tell me?
I been tryna convince ya
The same people that oughta be in your corner are the ones rootin’ against ya
It’s comin’ off kinda hateful
But do I really wanna share what I built up with somebody who ain’t grateful?
Lettin’ dead weight stop me
I gotta be the one to look out for myself if ain’t nobody else got me

[Chorus]
I can’t get it off
It’s like a hundred pound weight strapped to me
Can’t run and can’t walk
I can’t get it off
Straight jackin’, feet shackled with some duct tape covering my mouth
I’m just tryna be a grown man, grown man
I’m just tryna be a grown man, a grown man, yeah