Can’t Feel My Pain

Look, I’m sick right now but this couldn’t wait
I told em’ pass me the pill cause I can’t deal wit it
So much weight up on my shoulders and I still lift it
I can't do dis by myself
I’m lookin at you, screaming callin out for help
Here I go again..
Rapping about my pain you said you wanna know my story well listen while I explain
Goin through so much while they speaking up on my name but im gon do my best to stand because everyone just the same right?
Damn, beggin calling for help cause everyone I done turned to just left me all by myself
Searching all around cause I’m tryna find someone else but its like all that I got left is just pictures up on my shelf
And it hurts.. cause ain’t nobody really care for me
Say you got my back but ain’t nobody really there for me
Calling out to god cause he the only one thats here for me
Yo friends turn out to be yo enemies so choose em carefully
Look
“I Turned this pain into passion
Don’t bury me let the wind take my ashes..”
“I Shed my tears with you
Discussed my fears with you
Why do I... wanna spend... all my years wit you.”
Yo
Check me out
And in my mind I feel resentment
Cause you the only woman that I ever showed commitment
And you really don’t get it
I can’t put... All my emotions in a sentence
So now I sip promethazine and forfeit all my dreams
But now I understand that life ain’t always what it seems
My heart just started bleeding blood is filling all the streams
And now I’m kinda reckless copped a Glock wit a beam
My mandible up to my brain is where It goes between
Opposite of denim instead its red all on them jeans
There is no cure for broken hearts nor any type vaccine
What’s about to happen next suggest turn off your screen
Look
Like phora, I know I ain't been myself lately
I've been feelin' like someone else lately
It's prolly this empty Colt 45 that's numbing the pain inside
'Cause truthfully I ain't felt lately
I'm still a sinner, I'm losing myself, I need a sign
I needed space, I needed love, I needed time
And I never understood how you could treat me so heartless
Until I realized that you just needed mine
That's what I mean by "loving you never helps"
'Cause I just can't decide between loving you or myself
You just pushed away cause You drew a line and I crossed it
Crossing out yo exes and ex-ing out all yo loses, I know
What it's like to lose somebody you love
And y’all can’t ever feel what I feel
In a world so fake I just need something that's real
I've been dying to live, the devil's shooting to kill
I just can't help but wonder if you think of me still