Call Your Phone

I don’t know why
I can’t pick up my phone
I know I wanna talk to you
Don’t think I’m being shy or rude
I just think that I can’t really tolerate what’s in your eyes
Does that sound Cliche?
Does that sound dumb?
I’m always getting told what I say is cliche
But what’s the harm in that?
We’re so taught to be embarrassed of who we are in this, in this

I’m proud to say I’ve grown, I know I don’t talk on the phone to you anymore
Honey I am sure you have noticed
It kills me that I know you noticed
And I can’t say a thing

But, I’m proud to say I’ve grown
Honestly, the reason I don’t talk on the phone to you, anymore
Is cause I’m so different from beforе
Will you recognise the voicе coming out of you speaker phones?
Oh oh...
Well I don’t know, oh oh
And that’s the thing, I don’t know...
Whether its for better or for worse
At one moment, I was yours

Now isn’t that weird?
Isn’t that so weird?
I’ve always thought relationships are kind of weird
Because there’s like friendships, right?
It’s completely normal
You talk day and night
If you drift apart well that’s alright
You remember what they did for your life

But relationships
We’ve been trained if they leave your life they’re gone for good
That’s an old chapter that you can close and no more rereading
Cause “that’s unhealthy to do.”

But I don’t want that to be you...
I know that sounds cliche but I don’t want that to be you
I’ll treat it like a friendship
I have my own brain and I have my own mind
I can make my own decisions
I’ve made it now, that’s what I’m going with

So I’ll continue to reminisce about you

Because honestly
Honestly, you were a pretty cool dude
Baby that’s true
And no it’s not unhealthy for me to think these things about you
Or reminisce about memories or watch videos on YouTube

That’s just what we’ve been told to know
But it doesn’t mean anything, ya know?
You can make your own decisions
That’s mine about you

Thank you for everything you do
Thank you for everything you did for me
Cause I’m such a better person, now I’ve learned so much
It’s insane how much I’ve learned
I really feel like I’ve grown from when we used to talk
Oh

And I don’t know
I know I should call your phone
But I guess that’ll make me feel alone
In a weird way
Even though technically I’m less alone if I’m calling you on the phone...