​california

[Chorus]
I'm afraid to love you now
I was never used to growth
But something's on the other side of this
Now I live in California
I'm afraid to love you now
I was never used to this
But something's on the other side of us
Now I live in California

[Verse 1]
Cradle me dear
I'm so deprived of love
I'm so depressed, it shows
You know the trouble
Nights on the rubble
Dying for one more chance to see the world
Crying at the funeral
All my addictions
Healed of the sickness
I am a witness

[Chorus]
But I'm afraid to love you now
I was never used to growth
But something's on the other side of this
Now I live in California
I'm afraid to love you now
I was never used to this
But something's on the other side of us
Now I live in California

[Verse 2]
Gotta find the right words
I don't really wanna fight for it
I've been staying up late
Wanna fill up my plate
I don't really wanna die for this (Don't really wanna die)
I don't really wanna talk about ya
But it's always on my mind
Every time I heard you cry
Wanna set these things aside
'Member nights thinking
We were so in love with
Everything we touched
But didn't tell a body that
This was fucking tough
On my soul
On my soul (My soul)
Never let go
Never let go

[Chorus]
But I'm afraid to love you now
I was never used to growth
But something's on the other side of this
Now I live in California
I'm afraid to love you now
I was never used to this
But something's on the other side of us
Now I live in California