Originally pre-released for Jaime Paige’s Bandcamp subscribers on March 16th, Cadmium Colors was released as a single on July 26th, 2024, along with a music video made by friendxp. The artist describes it as “a song about wanting to be remembered / to live.”
[Verse 1]
I spend my hours doing alchemy
I mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green
Prosaic practice of depravity
Suspending innocents above their disbelief
I wish that I could paint a pretty picture onto everything
And leave a mark upon the world that felt like anything
But maybe that's the essence of an artist and their legacy
Just chasing down a sense of infamy
(じゃ〜!) Put brush to canvas with a pirouette
A simple motion makes the consequence intricate
All the little nothings and my parapet
I hope it's something that you don't forget
[Chorus]
Cadmium red is the ground beneath
Cadmium orange, everything I see
Cadmium yellow is the air I breathe
Cadmium colors painted inside me
I can make autumn from a single leaf
Steal a fine picture like a first class thief
Make the water work like you won't believe
Find a new world that can set you free
How could anybody ever live like me?
[Verse 2]
I spend my hours doing alchemy
I make a life refining zinc inside the smeltery
It's not exactly where I want to be
But wanting doesn't matter when there's mouths to feed
I wish that I could paint a pretty picture of a fantasy
And turn a feeling to a living for my family
Instead I make the metals in the pigments in my reverie
And maybe that can be enough for me
Oh, isn't it funny facing destiny?
Its like a knife inside twisting my arteries
God, I want for nothing but identity
I think that something might be wrong with me
[Chorus]
Cadmium red is the ground beneath
Cadmium orange, everything I see
Cadmium yellow is the air I breathe
Cadmium colors painted inside me
Antegrade fever, 101 degrees
Shatter my body with a gentle breeze
Dammit, I am real and I have my dreams
Watch me burn brighter 'til I fail to breathe
How could anybody ever live like me?
[Bridge]
(Baby, do you know what it's like to die?)
(To see the sparkle fade from inside your eye?)
I can't remember what it's like to feel autonomy
Can't even feel it in the moments that you left to me
(I don't wanna leave with a work undone)
(The paint can barely dry 'fore it fills my lungs)
I kept a bullet in the chamber, mocking me
But I don't wanna feel it coming out of me
I don't want—
[Saxophone Solo: Soneji]
[Verse 3]
I spend my hours doing alchemy
I mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green
Chasing impossible philosophy
And hoping that this poison ain't the death of me
[Chorus]
Cadmium red is the ground beneath
Cadmium orange, everything I see
Cadmium yellow is the air I breathe
Cadmium colors painted inside me
I can make autumn from a single leaf
Steal a fine picture like a first class thief
Make the water work like you won't believe
Find a new world that can set you free
How could anybody ever live like—
[Outro]
(Baby, do you know what you wanna hear?)
('Cause you can say the word, make it oh so clear)
We're all just searching for a sense of solidarity
To hold each other close and confiscate our destiny
(No one wants to leave with a work undone)
(We only need a brush we can pass along)
I kept a bullet in the chamber for a rainy day
But what's the point in planning for it anyway?
I've got too many colors for a shade of grey
And I can make it autumn every single day
Cadmium Colors was written by Jamie Paige.
Cadmium Colors was produced by Jamie Paige.
Jamie Paige released Cadmium Colors on Fri Jul 26 2024.