Evan wrote about “Cadmium” in his reddit AMA in March 2016.
“Cadmium” is about the pressure that builds when you don’t say what you’re thinking about, and how it always feels so much better to just talk about what’s on your mind. Also I wanted to explore different representational strategies, i.e....
[Verse 1]
Was walking with my neck out
Some ways I wish I was
Was walking with my neck out
In some ways that I wish that I was
Out on the bevel of sound
It sounds like everything else
You'll know it when you hear it
'Cause you know the way my voice felt
[Verse 2]
Ignore my tone and everything
I sing, I sing for me
Ignore the phone on your bed
It rings, it rings, it rings
Shirt collar ringing me out
My collarbone got all red
And already severing prose
I wrote, so I sing instead
[Verse 3]
I hold you, put your neck out
Tell me the ways you wish you were
Keep your confidence sound
Your hook, my eye, my spur
So when I went to hang out
I hung behind your eyes
But my eyes still flicker with doubt
Quickly, oh I can't decide
I'm tapped out
Don't it always seem to go that
You could hold it right in your hands
Collapsing and still not know
In your hands
Collapse and still not know (Not know)
[Bridge]
Say what it is
Say how it is with everybody I know
I got no temper for that
I send you this cadmium red
One for every layer I shed
And I shed one layer for this
[Chorus]
Say what it is
It's so impossible
But if I just say what it is
It tends to sublimate away
When I was looking to drop
My life away
[Verse 4]
More every year
I shine light on edges I tried to unfeel
But we've gotta do better than that
Some sorting out
So I'll be sitting on the outskirts, if you wanna talk about it
Things in there were just getting so loud
[Chorus]
Say what it is
It's so impossible
But if I just say what it is
It tends to sublimate away
When I was looking to drop
My life away
Cadmium was written by Evan Stephens Hall.
Cadmium was produced by Pinegrove.
In an email to FADER, Evan said:
The song’s a lot about correspondence and communication. There’s a book called I Send You This Cadmium Red by John Berger and John Christie that collects the letters the two Johns sent to one another. The first letter sent was just a square of that color. I was writ...