,’&’,

I lost faith

She could be anywhere
Anywhere with despair

I promised her I'd come back
And, here I am
Without a clue
What to do

Oh, oh
Oh, oh

I want to swallow everything I've ever let consume me
I want these tables to stop dancing
I only meant for them to turn
I cut my teeth on something limitless
They remain dull as I gnaw on the confined space within what I've always known
Gnashing as it all tumbles around in my mouth, I-
I once sat with a stranger
Outside of a bar I used to roam
Joined her as she dipped her head into her bowl
Drenched, she gasped for air
Lunging across the table, she gripped my throat as if to steal back the air she left beneath the surface
Her fingers curled around my throat
Her nails perfectly incising the soft tissue in my neck
This was more love than I'd ever known
Slowly, she crushed everything I used to know
Finally, finally
Yes
I was no longer alone