This song uses the metaphor of a hospital deathbed to allude to the “killing” of parts of a personality or past that is no longer wanted.
It refers to change like euthanasia, negating the idea that change is good and instead is a death sentence for the past.
The low, electric glow, static snows in the lobby
Dull TV, magazines, waiting rooms can't hide me
From the sting, paper sheets, bloodwork and the IV
And the whirring machines while the nurses reassure me
This will be quick and easy, I'm not gonna feel a thing
Lie and say it'll be alright, like a stray falling asleep
'Cause I'm so good at hurting myself
Pulse is slow, faint metronome on my left side
Beneath my protruding spine
You can hardly hear at night
White flag, blindfold covering my sunken eyes
And a line of rifles aimed at my sick mind
'Cause I'm so good at hurting myself
Brittle Boned was written by Julien Baker.
Brittle Boned was produced by Cody Landers.
Julien Baker released Brittle Boned on Fri Oct 23 2015.
Julien Baker explained the meaning of “Brittle Boned” in a Q&A with Stereogum:
When I was in New York and I was talking about ‘Brittle Boned’ before playing it. I explained that it’s about having to kill parts of yourself you don’t like so you can be a better person on the whole. And there was...