Bringer of Change

I'm dreaming again though I still can’t remember them
Been talking myself down, been picking myself up
If I open up my heart and if I open up my eyes
I'm both afraid and so excited for what I might find
My home is a studio, the perfect size
On the west coast, 2500 miles away
From everything I've ever known
To say the least it’s taking me time to find my way, my grind

And I wanna get back on track
And I want to believe in myself again
If a bringer of change is what I seek
Then I'll turn to myself and I'll love what I see
I need to be the person I know, I'm capable of being

Doubt myself til I cry, apologize for what I like
Mistake after mistake, impulsive or complacent
I'm harder on myself than anyone else
And I'm trying to shake that curse, that mindset is absurd
I expect perfection but I see my flaws
No expectations for anyone but myself
I'm done trying to fit inside this box
I've gotta trust my gut, gut, gut

And I wanna drive real fast
And I wanna sing until my voice cracks
If a bringer of change is what I seek
Then I’ll be, then I’ll be my own symbol of peace
I need to be myself, because I know thats what I do best