Breaking

When i closed my eyes
It was always you i'd find
Standing there with nothing to hide
And every time you spoke
I could feel you in my throat
Crawling out to get back into my mouth

I'm not what you wanted
I'm just something you've forgotten in your mother's hair
I can feel you breaking
Every day you wake up aching for someone that wasn't there

All the things you dreamt
And all the things you never meant
Are in my skin and in my bones and in my breath
I can feel them in my sleep
And when you're standing next to me
Your hands are so far from my hands
Like you said they should be