“boywontcry”– the lead single of brakence’s 2019 EP bhavana – is a commentary on – and an ultimate denial of – the toxic masculine stereotype that men shouldn’t cry or show any emotion. This assertion is also where the term “softie” comes from. The “he” on brakence’s mind during the chorus could be...
[Verse 1]
Saw you on stage in the morning
If you looked in my eyes
You couldn't tell nothin' 'bout what happened before ya'
I knew a lie when I told it
And even if you're good guy, all California
I ain't, I ain't unfoldin'
While in the broad day takin' advice
I just can't seem to report it
Ooh, and I get money in the peak of my vices (Yeah)
Just gotta bend my knees
All the numbers sayin' I ain't got issues (Yeah)
Well, your girlfriend can't lie like me
And I can't seem to answer my own questions with this time (Yeah)
'Cause somewhere far ahead, I go fallin' far behind
[Chorus]
It won't be Heaven when I leave here
I get to movin' cause I'm fine
You know I never wanna be him
So why the fuck's he on my mind?
I'm gonna find another reason
And I'll be puttin' up a fight
And if my eyes are ever speakin'
I'm gonna hide it, boy won't cry, yeah
[Verse 2]
You were the mindful kind of gorgeous (Yeah)
If I looked in your eyes
I couldn't tell nothing about what happened before this (Yeah)
You knew the lie when I told you
And even if a good guy wanna explore it (Yeah)
I just, I just can't afford to
While in the broad day takin' advice (Yeah)
I just can't seem to consort you
It's just in my—
[Bridge]
No, I've been waiting to let you know that I (Yeah)
Wanna hit your telephone, 'cause I
Know you're out in Yellowstone, but (Yeah)
You make me wanna forget that I am made of you (Yeah)
Sittin' in the back thought, "This is what I want"
"It's what I want" (Yeah)
[Verse 3]
Oh, I was dead wrong, now I got nothin'
And I just can't think about who I'm crushin'
I was dead wrong and I can't fix dead air
Shit too far away, should've stopped fightin' to care
I was dead wrong, weak shit, mind my business
I'm just tryna to make what I love a livin'
I lost hope, fuck boys thought me a ceilin'
Too insecure to let them know how I was feeling
[Chorus]
It won't be— fuck, mmm
It won't be Heaven when he's leavin'
I get to movin' 'cause I'm fine
You know I never wanna be here
So why the fuck's he on my mind?
I'm gonna find another reason
And I'll be puttin' up a fight
And if my eyes are ever leakin'
I'm gonna hide it, boy won't cry
It won't be heaven when he's leavin'
I get to movin' 'cause I'm fine
You know I never want to be here
So why the fuck's he on my mind?
I'm gonna find another reason
And I'll be puttin' up a fight
And if my eyes are ever leakin'
I'm gonna hide it, boy won't cry, yeah
[Outro]
You can't sell this man, you got—
boywontcry was written by brakence.
boywontcry was produced by brakence.
brakence released boywontcry on Wed Jul 24 2019.