Blue Heaven

[Chorus]
She said I did what I can for you
It’s just so hard understandin’ you
She said I did what I can for you
But it's so hard understandin’ you

[Verse 1]
Here we go with the same old song again
Let it all out at night, I often did
Give it all up, I often thought of it
Pour a big glass and I take a shot of it
Do it to forget everything I did
And sometimes I do it to forget I lived
And sometimes it’s hard, that’s the way it is
So forget it all kid, just blaze a spliff
Big hole in my chest, got my heart ripped out
No love left, got no heartbeat now
Her voice was my own heartbeat sound
And now it’s gone, her heartbeat drownеd
Kept you close like a sacrеd treasure
Her touch saved me and relieved the pressure
Had me so lost, I was sendin’ letters
To my past self, tellin’ me enjoy the pleasures
She already dead to me, listen to what she said to me
Baby you ain’t all that, check yourself mentally
Lately you’ve been ramblin’ on about destiny
Sayin’ you reflected, you will never get the best of me
Had good times, I’ll remember you for that
Been apart so long, now I wonder where you at
Are you happy or sad? Are you good? Are you bad?
Sometimes I care but I guess I’ll never know that
Everything’s a phase unless it come and go
And they easy to forget as long as I’m blowin’ smoke
Every time I take a breath, there’s a little bit of hope
I’ll be livin’ while I can, I’ll be hangin’ from a rope
All these memories I made were fake, but I don’t want that
In a deep sleep, I wake but then I fall back
Grey sky swallowed by the dark, now it’s all black
Banished from the planet, I will never try to crawl back

[Chorus]
She said I did what I can for you
It’s just so hard understandin’ you
She said I did what I can for you
But it's so hard understandin’ you

[Verse 2]
Froze like ice, I’m enterin’ blue heaven
Examinin’ my soul, I’m in a review session
Pickin’ me apart, revealin’ my true essence
Pain will teach you more than a few lessons
And I’m on a way to get a late night fix
Gettin’ fucked up every late night, bitch
Spillin’ what I’m sippin’ on my plain right kicks
Tryna satisfy every late night itch
Leavin’ at eleven, I’ll be home by six
Had to find a time so that I can write this
Fought a lot of things but I couldn’t fight this
You don’t know the feelin', you are not a psychic
I was lied to in the face before
A couple hundred times or maybe more
But I’ve lied too like a daily chore
I seen both sides of a breakin' core
Lettin’ people in, why I’m crazy for?
I know how it ends so save me Lord
I didn’t wanna love you movin’ forth
But we just connect like it can’t record
And I didn’t mean to hurt anybody, believe me
How come anybody isn’t comin’ to see me?
How come anybody never comin’ to see me?
Love without a goodbye, why did you leave me?
Memories I made were fake, but I don’t want that
In a deep sleep, I wake but then I fall back
Grey sky swallowed by the dark, now it’s all black
Banished from the planet, I will never try to crawl back
Froze like ice, I’m enterin’ blue heaven
Examinin’ my soul, I’m in a review session
Pickin’ me apart, revealin’ my true essence
Pain will teach you more than a few lessons