Blue and Gold

I'll stare at the flowers in your room, on the walls, on the bed
I wish they'd fill my head
I'd prefer fake flora imagery
Instead of what keeps me up at night
I've been wondering what your soul looks like
Is it blue and gold?

I take your affections and run them through a delay
Forever they will ring until I'm in my grave
My body's cold and not my own
I feel like a fragment of myself
I'll never know the pain you hold
It's just another half-faded memory

I've spent hours reading everything you've evеr said
I memorized evеry line
Imagined the pen
It's work but it will be worth it in the end
With throat sore and a fever dream
I'll still sing about you through this medicated sleep
I'll leave watermarks for you to trace
'Cause when I broke above the surface
All I saw was your face
When I broke above the surface
All I saw was your face

I take your affections and run them through a delay
Forever they will ring until I'm in my grave
My body's cold and not my own
I feel like a fragment of myself
I'll never know the pain you hold

I'm trying to find you in my patience
And I'd give anything to feel you in familiar places
I miss it so, the feeling to go home

I take your affections and run them through a delay
Forever they will ring until I'm in my grave