Blinded By the Memories

[Verse]
I was aware that you were gon’ be bad for me like I’m a martyr being cut to pieces and slaughtered
‘Cause I decided to believe in you
But I was prepared regardless
Cherished you wholeheartedly
Even knowin’ how we’d fall to pieces
Though, there was a piece of hope that hopefully you’re the peace I’m missin’, the missin’ piece then piece me whole and not be these cold women treatin’ me like the gorgons; just develop a heart of stone the moment you see me
‘Cause I be strugglin’ to bottle my devotion; a genie that’s s’posed to be out the bottle
Even though, It’s boring
So, I’m really sorry I’m naive and artless
Not heartless enough to draw you in and paint you into a corner
I was geared up for despondency like I’m armed to the teeth with artillery
Because you keep us a secret and you were hidin’ more accounts
See, I believed you’re doubtin’ me, you got out of an unhealthy relationship
So, I vowed to treat you right
But that’s when you switched the dynamic
Now, I’m gettin’ crucified
You’d nail a lie and I shut my eyes to it after you would ghost me, be dead as a nail then come back like after 3 to 7 days and I believed you’re occupied
Then came across you gettin’ hammered with other guys and I don’t know why it ain’t cross my mind
The fault was mine, stuck by your side
Just holdin’ tight to the pipe dream that we’d go right to how it used to be like how I’d feel at ease, all right
Because you seemed trustworthy and the time you’re the meaning in my life, we’re delighted and that even I believed you’re the girl of my dreams like you’d never leave my side
Now, you’re unrecognizable
I can’t stifle me to pine for those times, though
I’m blinded by the memories, I desire you don’t come home to me
I’m fightin’ these feelings
So, deem this as closure
I’m disclosin’ everythin’ in hopes that you finally leave my dome piece