​blind

Every morning that I wake up
Always see you in the mirror
In my eyes, in my smile
In the way that I appear
In my walk, in my dress
In every single thing I fear
You're somehow always here

Every minute that I made it through
You were never there
In the pain, in the screams
In the wiping of the tears
In the loss, in the gain
When the drugs were always here
You were somehow never there

Every need I needed met
Never seemed to meet you
When the bumps, when the shots
Held my hand instead of you
When the warmth, when the bond
In the bottle I was soothed
Something I never got from you

Every strangers bed that I rent
I hope where I can stay
With no love, only fucks
With our damage in the way
Only broken, never healed
With the scars we don't explain
Well some things never change

I wake up
Close my eyes
To things I don't wanna see
I'm too blind
I don't care
To accept reality

Every morning that I wake up
Always see you in the mirror
In my eyes, in my smile
In the way that I appear
In my walk, in my dress
In every single thing I fear
You're somehow always here

Every minute that I made it through
You were never there
In the pain, in the screams
In the wiping of the tears
In the loss, in the gain
When the drugs were always here
You were somehow never there

Every need I needed met
Never seemed to meet you
When the bumps, when the shots
Held my hand instead of you
When the warmth, when the bond
In the bottle I was soothed
Something I never got from you

Every strangers bed that I rent
I hope where I can stay
With no love, only fucks
With our damage in the way
Only broken, never healed
With the scars we don't explain
Well some things never change

I wake up
Close my eyes
To things I don't wanna see
I'm too blind
I don't care
To accept reality