Blessing In Disguise

Don't ever get drunk off of jealousy
God I hate it when I let it get the best of me
A distraction from everything I’ve Yet to see
Because I'm blind from all your true inner beauty

And I never meant for it to be this way
Seems like I'm fucking up every other day
When was the last time I got up just to pray?
These days it sounds like He’s got nothing to say

Just a man wasn't planned please find a way to forgive
I forgive myself but its ain't as affirmative
If Jesus did His part and His life he gives
Then fiendish ways bad habits i will outlive

Got faith in your will, I can feel i can feel you testing
The devil whispers in my ear, i hear him finessing
Lord i need your strength to get me through this lesson
And wisdom so I don't miss out on all the blessings

But the blessing had always been with me, Just disguised
Spent too much time wondering and asking why
Just shut up and listen bro that would be wise
And look no further cuz i found the reason in your eyes