Blessing and a Curse

[Chorus: Ashley Joi]
Spent half of my life in denial
Was an ongoing trial
Already sworn in, for better or worse
Left in the hands of a jury
Beyond the shadow of a doubt
It's a blessing and a curse

[Verse 1: Ashley Joi]
I never understood this target on me
I didn't ask to look the way that I do
Did all this bullying derive from envy?
Was I guilty of it too?
I wasn't dark enough to hang with those girls
But I wasn't white enough to be red and blue
Ooh, stuck in-between me, myself and I, forced to face the truth

[Chorus: Ashley Joi]
Spent half of my life in denial
Was an ongoing trial
Already sworn in, for better or worse
Left in the hands of a jury
Beyond the shadow of a doubt
It's a blessing and a curse

[Verse 2: Ashley Joi]
Got old enough to know my beauty
Brought me to places I could only imagine
And I learnt it all don't come duty-free
Never fall on entrapment
And as much as I wish it was different
I wouldn't have it any other way
'Cause it taught me how to pay attention, what a price to pay

[Chorus: Ashley Joi]
Spent half of my life in denial
Was an ongoing trial
Already sworn in, for better or worse
Left in the hands of a jury
Beyond the shadow of a doubt
It's a blessing and a curse

[Outro: Ashley Joi]
Spent half of my life in denial
It's a blessing and a curse
Left in the hands of a jury
It's a blessing and a curse