BLEESSING OR A CURSE?

Back in the days
When it all started
Maybe 5 or 6 years young
Already got the vibes
Felt like I'll have a chance
Felt like I was the one
But I was only another stupid child
Who thought to had the world
Around her when she didn't even had the support from the fam

It makes me happy
But at times it puts me down
Is it a blessing or a curse?
Tears and laughter
Laughter and tears
So confused
Always been told to shut the fuck up
Too annoying for yall
Had to keep my head up
Only crying at nights
Broken hearts many times
Visions of me and the crowd
Pff
Underrated
Never been overvalued
You can't make it
Well let me see what can I do

It makes me happy
But at times it puts me down
Is it a blessing or a curse?
Tears and laughter
Laughter and tears
So confused
Everyday I ask myself
If it's a blessing from the lord
Or a curse from the evil
But at the end (of the day)
I have no answer
Can't even count on em
The only person I can count on
It's me and myself

It makes me happy
But at times it puts me down
Is it a blessing or a curse?
Tears and laughter
Laughter and tears
So confused