Bleeding (Medicated)

[Verse 1]
I really should get medicated
Insanity tricked me into thinking that I made it
Dead for a long time, so far gone
Why do I have to keep up with this curse with songs
Yeah I told you it’s been a long time coming
Tell you that I’m fine but I’m really bluffing
Nothing, that’s the word described for me
Eternal slave to the throne, I’m no longer free
20/20 up close my eyes aches and burns
From all the things I’ve said I can never learn
Uh, was hoping that I could stop this one day
Now I just say but I can’t say that I can say
Feels like I’m on top of the world
Reality I’m suffering underground
Frowns of a child but that isn’t right
A kid’s expression should be happy and bright
My perspective and vision is so jaded
Exhausted and wasted I feel super faded
Blurred vision that’s why I need my glasses
Contacts get dirty and then I get all blinded
Shining for nothing I’m just so self-centered
A selfish freak who only talks won’t get any better
Room for improvement? More like rehab
You think I’m good but I’m the real reason of bad
Sad to even think of this or even to explain on this
I’m just repeating my mistakes with my checklist
Chains on my wrist, I guess this is how it is
Can’t believe my attitude I always feel so pissed
Guess this is how things turn out
Can’t seem to get my feet to take another route
The plan is devastating there goes my dreams
Mind so deadly all part of the devil’s scheme
Shattered mirrors I know that I’m a mess
Yet I am blessed but I can’t carry on the test
Numbers, stats, letters, and words come
Could’ve been smarter but I’ve made myself dumb
Heart bleeding, bones bleeding, gums bleeding
Eyes bleeding, skin bleeding, everything is bleeding
I’m pretty sure that I lost my sight
Everything I do and think never seems right
Yeah, I need to get some outside influence
Stuck in a cage I need support before I lose it
I’m desperate just for a couple friends
Ones who would stick with me until the very end
Always day dreaming about a community
That would always be with me and won’t betray me
Unlike those other two but I already know
People change and their actions really show
Shots in the arm by the nurse, vaccination
Going through pages and pages contemplating
This is a problem I can’t seem to fix
No sort of health care seem to be fit
Opulent in the front but inside is horrible
Read this straight out of prediction, oracle
The Lord says that he would take me as I am
But first I feel like I need to throw out all the spam
Man, why can’t I just give my life to someone
Someone who deserves it, there can’t be no one
Misfortunes and tragedies I feel super sorry
Then I feel these life for granted things come upon me

[Outro]
Yeah
Time is so precious
But it seems like I can’t take in the message
So restless
I’m wicked